The Freedom of Being Alone

     The best and worst thing about being single is the freedom. Most people don't think of freedom as being a bad thing, but sometimes it is. You can make a choice about where to go, or what to do, but if something ends up to be a mistake, it's all on you. Sometimes it's nice to not have to make a decision. It's nice to float with the current instead of trying to swim. 
     I mention this because I have some decisions to make. At work may have an opportunity to move to California. It's incredibly appealing since I've been thinking of leaving this rainy city, and I like my company. So moving and staying with the same company would be awesome. But I'd also be leaving a lot here.
    Also, I recently visited my friends in the Tri-cities area in eastern WA. We had a great time visiting, boating, and having a great time! I joked about moving there, but then we started having a serious conversation. Why not move out there? I have friends, there's plenty of jobs, cost of living is good, it's not to far to drive home to see my family.
    So, I've got done decision-making to do. And the joy of it is that I don't have anyone's permission to ask. No serious discussion has to occur. No lives have to be rearranged but my own.  I can do whatever I want. On the contrary, wouldn't it be nice to have someone to have thoes discussions with? I feel lucky to be so free sometimes, but on the other hand, at my age, I'd like to have someone in my life to be tied to. I'd love to have someone to come home to.
     However, the fact of the matter is that I don't. And I probably won't. I have a feeling I will never have a forever partner. Never have a family. But I'm good at being on my own. I've learned to enjoy the little pluses of being alone. Freedom is one of those small comforts, but one that I will take and cherish. At least I have choices; and at least I am free.